Better to have never met you in my dream than to wake and reach for hands that are not there.”
-Otomo No Yakamochi
You KNOW that I loved you…
I gave you my entire heart and you just threw it away. Oh, you had your reasons. They just sucked if you ask me. Of course, I was the one left so that probably doesn’t matter to you. Does it matter to you that you broke my heart. More than broke… SHATTERED.
I hear your reasons never became a reality. At least not with much success. Sorry to hear that. Makes it all seem even more pointless. I know we were young. That’s usually when you give your heart away the easiest, isn’t it? It was definitely a lesson learned for me. I just wish you weren’t the one who taught it.
I would have made you happy. I already did, didn’t I? In my minds eye I can see us and what we were like even after all these years. I can still feel within me the passion we shared. I cried, did you know that? One of the last times we were together. Overwhelmed by the love I felt. That’s the only time in my life that has happened. I KNOW you felt it, too.
I remember you crying, too. The night you said farewell. Does that mean it broke your heart, too? Or, was that a lie? All for show?
Well, I hope it was worth it. Killing my dreams to follow you to the ends of the Earth. Of starting a family.
Did you know how much I loved you?